project work

i wouldn't say it was a success,

neither would i say it was a failure.

all i can say is that i'm really glad it's all over.

=DD

days to come shall be heaven to me.

for hell bestowed onto me its powers already.

haha

sheryllynn.. your right. haha.
i guess i shouldn't brood over it.
hmm yea. ill try my best.

haha. hmm looking ahead i seeeeeeee.
chinese ahhh!
how i dread chinese. looks like ill be spending the weekends mugging on chinese dictionary.
hahahahahha don't give me that puzzled look.
dictionary improves my vocabulary =DD
ahhaha good luck for all else taking chinese or pw exams!!

betrayal.

my friend whom i know is close to me.

says im a player.

why do everyone have that image.

i definately have not been in so many relationships to be called a player for sure.

and why of all my friend who has been with me since pri school.

i've already been feeling fucked up enough.

i wish i can just take it in my stride.

but it is never easy.

yesterday night was fucked up...

as i teared myself to sleep ugh.

i guess im still that weak inside.

here i am.

on the worst day of my life.

i miss you more.

whenever i think about you.

i've been thinking.

to go crooked.

or maybe castrate.

to stop all my sorrows.

over.

now i am sure i must let go.
i hope i don't lose my ego.
cause currently i feel like a goat.

now i know you cant like me.
theres no chance for me to win your heart.
i should just lose all hope.

though theres still a year to go.
i hope i wont feel sad throughout.
you are still truly gorgeous.

feelings so vast, emotions so deep.

as every day passes i stem deeper...

never do i make the first move.

(what was i thinking?)

always i've been behind waiting for others to make the first.

but now its all different...

after my previous i am shattered and left broken.

waiting so long for some1 to pick me up

and fix me back.

i don't get that reply i so desire.

is it all lost.

how i wish a yes i will hear.

or at least a sign so i will know.

i really want...

to see you all day long.

heartaches and confidence lost.

emotions kept and thoughts unsaid.

mind unclear and yearnings unsatisfied.

maybe i should just... forget about it all...

why am i feel this way.

nothing's been said..

little has been done.

but am i ready to go in all the way.

maybe..

just maybe..

i am better off..

alone.

L O V E

you tender smile and sweet cries.

steals my attention from everything else.

is this new affection,

something i've waited for so long.

i don't know and am afraid to know.

for someone whom maybe friend today.

maybe strangers tomorrow,

that i will never afford.

...

the trail you left i gladly walk beside.